III. God

Who or what is God?

God is our Father in Heaven and on Earth
Heaven and Earth means to us this world we live in, and the afterlife in which God the Father, the Son, the Holy Spirit, and all the Angels and Saints live. Yet there is in Man Heaven and Earth, the physical and the spiritual.

 

So we can say: God is in us, and He is outside of us. He ignites in us the Love and Light, and He is outside the indescribable Love and the overwhelming Light.

 

Teresa of Àvila wrote in her book: “The Interior Castle, 7th Apartment”: “For as He has His abode in Heaven, so He probably has a place in the Soul, where only His Majesty dwells, so to speak, a second Heaven.” Teresa was very clever. There is God in the sky above us, so there's also the equivalent in Man, in his Soul. 450 years ago Teresa risked to burn for this doctrine openly on the stake – today people see their God, if they have a God, enthroned in Heaven somewhere far above. Poor world!

 

God is transpersonal
God is in every form, the smallest atom and the Universe's largest, at the same time He is formless. We must not make any images of Him, as He is outside of any form. Form means incarnation, God is everything outside of each incarnation. He is nothing of form, He is the emptiness outside the form. Since any emptiness is existing, this is all God. God is the silence, because only in this silence God is tangible and audible. Therefore, it is so important to make churches again to places of silence.

 

God is personal
God is incarnated in Jesus Christ, His Son. Jesus is the form of God, His word became flesh. In Jesus Christ, the Anointed One, He became apparent to the people and sent His Son for salvation of all of us.

God speaks to us through the Holy Spirit
The Holy Spirit is the Word of God and the giver of life. Originally, the word of God was received through the Prophets and Evangelists and written down in the Book of Books, the Holy Bible.

 

God is with us by His Heavenly Helpers
To the Heavenly Helpers of God we count all blessed and sanctified, the Archangels and a large hierarchy of Angels with all the dead who have found God.

 

Many people see Mother Mary as His principal assistant. For He made Her the Mother of His Son Jesus, and without Mary everything is only as half as beautiful.

 

Who or what are We?

We are the visible evidence of the presence of God on Earth. Our primal substance comes from God. It is said that God created Man in His own image. Since God has no form, we are in Spirit formless and shapeless. We are not our bodies, we are not our thoughts and our feelings. We are truly of Spirit. Because we, too, have the Divine in us, in our Self, our true Self, which rises above our body and our thoughts and feelings. When we ask: “Who am I?”, we are the questioner and not the one for which we ask. We are pure Divine consciousness. Let's call it simply 'Divine' Soul'. If our Divine Soul unites with God, then we are one with God, and this is the greatest of all mysteries, because this can take place here on Earth. Jesus speaks of this mystery in His metaphors and parables, because 2000 years ago, He was not allowed to reveal it to the people because they were still not ready to grasp it.

 

Our consciousness is ripe for the veracity, the truth and clarity. The Bible speaks the Truth, everyone must divine it by his own. There is help for anyone who seeks it, he will be led by Jesus (“I am the way and the truth and the Life: no Man cometh unto the Father but by me!” ).

 

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“Christ has no one on earth except for you,
no hands except yours,
except your feet“
(Teresa of Àvila)
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How do we find God?

By going beyond all thoughts and feelings. By letting everything pass by, the images and visions. Because these ideas are limited. Only when we are completely open, He is there. He shows us, not vice versa. He decides when the right time has come. If we still have blockages, fictions and guilty feelings that are a hindrance, we must remove them. He let His light shine through our Soul so that He can show us. God burns in every cell of our body, and the longing for Him does never end. This feeling is also described by people who had a near-death experience. Once come into contact with God, having even seen the Light – and life is another. The highlight is the Unio Mystica, the mystical union, the vision of God, happening in absolute secrecy of the deepest Soul.

 

When I read the first revelation of God to the people, as described in Enoch's vision: “Be still, know, I am God,” I was deeply shaken. These words God spoke directly to me! For a long time I could not read through these verses up to the end without being disturbed completely, and they touch me still. How could I be so blind, so deaf, have been so stupid! How could I not have known! I cannot believe it yet, how it may be possible that we simply do not know: God is here! Why are we so insulated that we are not perceiving God? We count the words of a poem and do not realize its meaning.

 

Only when we are able to create within us a state of deep stillness, or better put, if we find that space of silence within us, we are able to find God in ourselves. Because only God can speak through the silence. Only through the silence, a tone sounds, a word can be understood.

 

Please be quiet, in order that God may speak to you:

 

I speak to you.
Be quiet
Know
I am God.

 

I spoke to you
When you were born.
Be quiet
Know
I am God.

 

I spoke to you
With your first glance.
Be quiet
Know
I am God.

 

I spoke to you
With your first word.
Be quiet
Know
I am God.

 

I spoke to you
With your first thought.
Be quiet
Know
I am God.

 

I spoke to you
With your first love.
Be quiet
Know
I am God.

 

I spoke to you
With your first song.
Be quiet
Know
I am God.

 

I speak to you
Through the grass of the meadow.
Be quiet
Know
I am God.

 

I speak to you
Through the trees of the forests.
Be quiet
Know
I am God.

 

I speak to you
Through the valleys and hills.
Be quiet
Know
I am God.

 

I speak to you
Through the Holy Mountains.
Be quiet
Know
I am God.

 

I speak to you
Through rain and snow.
Be quiet
Know
I am God.

 

I speak to you
Through the waves of the sea.
Be quiet
Know
I am God.

 

I speak to you
By the dew of the morning.
Be quiet
Know
I am God.

 

I speak to you
By the evening's peace.
Be quiet
Know
I am God.

 

I speak to you
By the glow of the sun.
Be quiet
Know
I am God.

 

I speak to you
By the twinkling stars.
Be quiet
Know
I am God.

 

I speak to you
By the storm and the clouds
Be quiet
Know
I am God.

 

I speak to you
By thunder and lightning.
Be quiet
Know
I am God.

 

I speak to you
Through the mysterious rainbow.
Be quiet
Know
I am God.

 

I'll speak to you
If you are alone.
Be quiet
Know
I am God.

 

I'll speak to you
Through the wisdom of the ancients.
Be quiet
Know
I am God.

 

I'll speak to you
At the end of time.
Be quiet
Know
I am God.

 

I'll speak to you
When you've seen my Angel.
Be quiet
Know
I am God.

 

I'll speak to you
In eternity.
Be quiet
Know
I am God.

 

I speak to you.
Be quiet
Know
I am God.

 

(Source: The Gospel of the Essenes, complete edition book 1-4 The original texts from the Hebrew and Aramaic, translated by Dr. Edmond Bordeaux Székely, Publisher Bruno Martin.)

 

The Aramaic version was found in the Dead Sea Scrolls and is certainly datable to the period between 130 BC and 68 AD. The Chronicles of Enoch (Henoch) were in the 4th Century ascribed to the Apocrypha by Church Father Jerome, and thus declared heretical. So Enoch's vision was taken out of the Bible, but all that is good, eventually comes back – and so it was later discovered in the Dead Sea Scrolls, thanks to God!

 

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“God does not leave us in darkness.
Only when we leave Him,
We will perish“
(Teresa of Àvila)
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My God, why? – When we doubt and despair

 

The Doubt

“Eloi, Eloi, lema sabachthani?” – “My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me?” (Mark 15:34; cf. Mt 27:46). According to Mark and Matthew these were the last words of Jesus when He died on the cross. It is interpreted as a doubt. How could Jesus doubt His father if He and the Father are one? Jesus knew God's plan for Him, He knew His mission, He knew it already, when He as a twelve years old boy answered the teachers' questions in the Temple in Jerusalem. “Did you not know where I must be, about my Father's house?” He asked his outraged parents.

 

John was the only disciple of Jesus, who was present at His crucifixion. He describes Jesus' last words as follows: “After this, Jesus knew that everything was done, that the Scripture might be fulfilled, He says, 'I thirst!' There was a vessel full of vinegar: and they filled a sponge with vinegar and put it around a hyssop and held it to His mouth. When Jesus had received the vinegar, He said: 'It is finished', bowed His head and gave up.” (John 19.28-30). Of course, Jesus did not doubt. He was a man, and He was God's son. Jesus came to Earth to teach us of Love in order that we may find God! He loved with all His heart. He did not need to learn it.

 

The question is, can we ever open our hearts so far? Yes! Anyway, we must firmly believe that God holds our plan of salvation in His hands, and He never loses neither the plan nor ourselves ever out of His sight. And just as Jesus was concerned with His healings that men would not doubt, so I am also convinced that any doubt destroys everything. It prevents healing and brings us out of our heart's love. It prevents our prayers from reaching for God, for our Soul holds them back. Our Soul feels unworthy and bad when we doubt. Because this doubt comes from our mind. Our Soul wants to love, and we must allow it. If you want not only to be superficially healthy, but healed of body, mind and soul, think of Jesus' words that He spoke to the two lepers who returned after the healing of the ten lepers to Him to thank Him: “Your faith hath made thee whole.”

 

Jesus said unto the sick: “Effata!” – Open up. Open yourself to God's Light so it can flow through you and enlighten your Soul. It's all included. Faith, hope and love and trust, it's a good thing as it is. At baptism, the priest touches the ears and mouth of the baby and says, “Effata!” To make clear that the baby is open to the Holy Spirit.

 

“Effata” – It is done by breathing in deeply. We breathe the Spirit of God and receive His Love in our hearts.

 

This is important for our ongoing spiritual maturation. Only through a growing faith in God can our life experiences make sense, even with all its hardships and times of alienation and tests. Even if our life is sometimes passing through a time of searching, it is never a search for the meaning of life itself, it is only a time of drought and dryness, in which we can re-arrange and re-structure our new life and salvation. Thus we come of age. God needs mature people!

 

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“How rare are the people
who what they do, do it all.”
(Teresa of Àvila)
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The Despair

Even if we believe in Eternal Life, the death of a loved one strikes us badly. Each person handles the pain in his own way. Some experience a persistent traumatic process over many years, and that takes away all the joy and laughter in the ongoing lives of the survivors.

 

In my opinion, the total giving of ourselves to God helps best when in pain. Offer up your pain to God. Whether quietly or loudly, it is good for your Soul. Let it go into the abyss of life where you currently stand. Do not strive against it! We can not deal with the loss, and we fear our own death, because we still have a taboo on that fact. But please do not ask God: “Why have you left me?”, rather ask him: “Please do not leave me!” That will sound better, this is a request that He likes to fulfil. The question: “Why have you left me?” brings you into doubt and takes you away from your love for Him. He will never abandon us. We are the ones who turn away from Him in our pain because with our doubts we close our hearts and therefore can no longer feel Him.

 

The biggest fear in connection with the death is our uncertainty about the time following. Many do not believe in life after death, and this may to them be an unimaginably horrible idea. Others believe in a Heaven and perhaps some sort of a Purgatory and Hell and are not sure how God will judge them and whether they deserve either one or the other. We are also afraid to be separated from our loved ones, thus harming them and having to leave behind all that is precious to us.

 

Perhaps it is helpful to remind ourselves that we go when dreaming at night into a similar state of consciousness. People who have ever had a near-death experience do know with absolute certainty that there is no such thing as an end to life. The majority report of a radiant, boundless Light and a feeling of infinite, indescribable Love. We enter into this Light and are embraced by His Love, and we experience a tremendous expansion of our consciousness. We meet the people again in Heaven, those whom we loved. In this state we continue to live and develop our Souls. Purgatory, the punishment of God that we fear, is in fact a Life Review we undertake. Surely that might for one or another be found to be difficult. If we do not in this life ease and cleans our soul and our conscience, we must do it in the Afterlife. Since we will find ourselves in unfamiliar territory in an unfamiliar state, it may be found to be more difficult.

 

Maybe you doubt these thoughts: “How does she know all this?” The mystical experiences are the same as near-death experiences. I know through the Love of God and through my connection with Him. I know how doubt feels, and I know very well the state of despair and sadness that can be felt. I know deep in my heart that there is life after death, and I know through my life and my work, that the Dead are with us. As we are communicating with the Saints via telepathy, so we can also communicate with the Dead from Soul to Soul. It actually becomes much easier because there are no walls and no body dividing us any more. We can recognize these Souls simply by a particular feeling. Through speaking with them, we do it with the knowledge that our words and our feelings are received immediately. We simply tell them everything that had remained unspoken. It's never too late! And remember:

 

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“The best and most precious is this:
Be silent and let God act and speak in silence
Amid the silence the secret word was spoken to me.”
(Teresa of Àvila)
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